You Can't Have It All

As usual, the reason behind all my depression and emotionally abused feeling is still the same person for almost 5 years.

Never been change.

I have a good job with a good salary. I leave in a condo. I can drive the car. I have pretty kiddos around.  But something is missing, 'til i realized, that none in this world is perfect.

I can't have it all, if i can, then i think my life is a perfect one. If my life is perfect, would i bother to call God? Would i still remember Him?

One thing for sure, God do love me. he knows me well,  so He let me feel those things, to remind me  to never let Him go.

What would i choose then?.. to feel the love of that person? or to feel God's love?

Definitely the latter.

So to you, you can hurt me emotionally over and over again. You can cheat on me, you can laugh at me.
You can just ignore me, you can do anything that you think makes you happy and makes me sad.  Then go on. After all I have Him that will ease all the pain that i feel.