Uhmm.. lately, i've been so upset. Wala lang. I just feel "used" by someone i thought my true friend. or maybe she is..
Kaya lang, mejo nahurt lang ako dun sa feelings na disregarded.
I admit na sobrang babaw ko to get hurt. I admit, yes i'm too senstitive. But come to think of it, sobrang babaw lang din ng kaligayahan ko.. The smiles and greet of the person means a lot to me na, sobrang appreciate ko na un talaga, knowing me na mahiyain talaga.Oh hell yeah, believe it or not, i am.. dun sa mga taong mahiyain din..nyahahaha.. pero kidding aside, mahiyain talaga ako... If we're not that close, at nagkita tayo, dont expect na kakausapin kita or babatiin.. Not that i'm a snob person. mahiyain lang talaga ako.. Nahihiya ako una mag-approach.. baka kase isipin na ang epal ko.. So i just wait his/her first move,. Kaya sobrang appreciate ko when a person make an effort to say hi or give a smile to me kahit ndi ko sya close.. Most of my friends, their very first impression to me is "maldita" at "suplada", but when they got to know me, eventually they realized na sobrang kulit ko daw pala.. jologs pa!.. :) huhhh.. sabi ko nmn, mirror image ko lang cla.. :)
So now comes to this friend of mine, i can say that we're close already bec we exchange stories and grudges in life and even some secrets..
But lately, things change. Parang nawalan ako ng trust if she's my true friend. But well, knowing me, like what i have said, mababaw lang akong tao, maybe if she will be the one to approach me again, then who knows, i'll realize that she's worth to keep.. :) Uhmm.. ok, ok.. She's a nice person. At naging magaan talaga ang loob ko sa kanya at iconsider her as my lil sis. Kaya cguro nahurt din ako. Because i know, she's a friend who's worth to keep...
I have no issue about them as a couple naman eh. I'm happy for her.. In fact soooo happy, coz finally, my lil sissy will totally move-on from her past... I was the one pushing her before to give the guy a try.. And she did naman at as i can see, she's really really happy.
Pero sana, kahit may jowa na sya sana same pa din yun approach nya bef at now na may partner na ulit sya.. oks lang sa akin eh.. ako na mismo ang magtutulak sa knya, "gora na.. i know kasama mo sya".. oks lang sa akin.. at naiintindihan ko... pero wala eh.. after that i think they become a couple, ni-ho ni-ha wala nako narinig sa kanya.. So i dont know. sobrang babaw ko talaga.. pero wala eh, i was hurt. Maiintindihan ko naman na sabihin nya man lng sa akin na uy girl coffee break? uy girl una nako sabay ko si.... So sana at least i will never feel na i was just an outlet of her sadness and boredom..
Kaya lang, mejo nahurt lang ako dun sa feelings na disregarded.
I admit na sobrang babaw ko to get hurt. I admit, yes i'm too senstitive. But come to think of it, sobrang babaw lang din ng kaligayahan ko.. The smiles and greet of the person means a lot to me na, sobrang appreciate ko na un talaga, knowing me na mahiyain talaga.Oh hell yeah, believe it or not, i am.. dun sa mga taong mahiyain din..nyahahaha.. pero kidding aside, mahiyain talaga ako... If we're not that close, at nagkita tayo, dont expect na kakausapin kita or babatiin.. Not that i'm a snob person. mahiyain lang talaga ako.. Nahihiya ako una mag-approach.. baka kase isipin na ang epal ko.. So i just wait his/her first move,. Kaya sobrang appreciate ko when a person make an effort to say hi or give a smile to me kahit ndi ko sya close.. Most of my friends, their very first impression to me is "maldita" at "suplada", but when they got to know me, eventually they realized na sobrang kulit ko daw pala.. jologs pa!.. :) huhhh.. sabi ko nmn, mirror image ko lang cla.. :)
So now comes to this friend of mine, i can say that we're close already bec we exchange stories and grudges in life and even some secrets..
But lately, things change. Parang nawalan ako ng trust if she's my true friend. But well, knowing me, like what i have said, mababaw lang akong tao, maybe if she will be the one to approach me again, then who knows, i'll realize that she's worth to keep.. :) Uhmm.. ok, ok.. She's a nice person. At naging magaan talaga ang loob ko sa kanya at iconsider her as my lil sis. Kaya cguro nahurt din ako. Because i know, she's a friend who's worth to keep...
I have no issue about them as a couple naman eh. I'm happy for her.. In fact soooo happy, coz finally, my lil sissy will totally move-on from her past... I was the one pushing her before to give the guy a try.. And she did naman at as i can see, she's really really happy.
Pero sana, kahit may jowa na sya sana same pa din yun approach nya bef at now na may partner na ulit sya.. oks lang sa akin eh.. ako na mismo ang magtutulak sa knya, "gora na.. i know kasama mo sya".. oks lang sa akin.. at naiintindihan ko... pero wala eh.. after that i think they become a couple, ni-ho ni-ha wala nako narinig sa kanya.. So i dont know. sobrang babaw ko talaga.. pero wala eh, i was hurt. Maiintindihan ko naman na sabihin nya man lng sa akin na uy girl coffee break? uy girl una nako sabay ko si.... So sana at least i will never feel na i was just an outlet of her sadness and boredom..
So define friend then?.. :)
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