Guilt feelings

I want to go home now and make up to my Sucre.
I feel so guilty. I cant even concentrate to what im doing.

I scolded him again, and slapped to his arms.. He cried so loud. I know,i hurt him again.
I know i'm a bad mother. I know that. This feeling tortures me. I do hate myself for yelling
my kids.. I love them soo much..

My Sucre,
I love you! I hope you'll not hate me for this. I love you son. I really do.. I'm so sorry son.
I hate myself for doing those to you. Pls dont ever hate me. All i want is the best for you and for you little sister.
But i'm hurting you so bad i know by scolding you.

I love you soo much son. I want to kiss and hug you right now but mommy is still here in the office so I asked God to kiss and hug you for me. :)

I love you. Ilove you and your lil sister more than my life.... You both are my happiness, my strength,.. my life... So i feel so bad that i hurt you..  

I LOVE YOU.. mmuah..

Love you so much,

Mommy