I was jobless... and this made me believe  that things happened for a reason.

 Ena need to go back to Philippines because Jake was infected by Dengue virus, definitely, the son needs his mother's touch. So she will stay there for almost 1 month.

I maybe jobless,  but i will be forever grateful to God. He give me a chance to experience to become fulltime wife and mother (err well, half time because MIL is here). I must say that.being full time mother is really hard. Well, it is a combination of hapiness and hardship. Im very much happy that i'm with my kids 24/7 but at the same time, worried. What will happen to us? Expenses here in abroad is very expensive and hubby's salary will not be enough for us to survive here. I'm still high hopes that as soon as Ate Ena will come back here, then new project will be open. I'm claiming that.. :)

Movie night

We watched Real Steel movie with Sucre. He enjoyed watching it. Awww. he's really grown-up.
he eat all by himself already. He loves noodles and pizza. He can express whatever he wants to say.
Like, "i like pizza", "my head ache", "my nose ache", "my mouth ache", "my tummy ache". He can count numbers 1 to 20. he can say  and point parts of the body (ears, nose, mouth, teeth, head, fingers,tongue, eyes,hair,feet,shoulder), he can distinguish colors (red, pink, yellow, black, white, green, blue, orange) He knows almost all of the nursery songs.

Then just yesterday, Sucre said for the second time "ay yab yu emjey" to his playmate MJ.

He can't sleep without me by his side. He's definitely MOMMY's BOY... I love him. I love sophie. I love them so much.

I won't give you up

I've been contemplating for a couple of weeks to what netbook i want to purchase. But i have a hard time to let go of my lappy. We've been together for almost 5 years. I never use it for almost a year but it's still there waiting for me to use her again. So now i was thinking if i will just replace the broken screen instead of buying a new one.. Aww.. after all i just need it for surfing the net..

Hayyz. yeah, i miss you may lappy. Newest ant fastest laptop will arise, but i will stick to you. Unless, you've given up on me.. :(

No Other Woman

I watched again No Other Woman movie. I must say, its worth the watch.
It's a movie where the story revolves around a young  married couple. Played by Derek (Ram) and Christine (Charmaine). They were perfectly happy couple until the husband found himself in the midst of a young, adventurous, sexy and pretty heiress played by Anne Curtis (Kara).

I give credits to the script writer of the movie. here are some of my favorite quotes.Bonggacious.. hehehe:

“No pressure! And kiss me and don’t you dare fall in love with me.” - Kara 

“You will only be called a mistress when there’s an emotional attachment. I’m not a mistress.” - Kara

“I’m not gonna give up Ram without putting up a god damn fight!” - Kara

“Ang mundo ay isang malaking Quiapo, maraming snatcher, maagawan ka, lumaban ka!" - Charmaine's Mom

“Sabi nila, a way to a man’s heart is through his stomach. Sa ganda mong yan, siguro madami kang alam na shortcuts."  - Charmaine

"You can call me whatever you want,SNAKE, BITCH or OTHER WOMAN, but I promise you, I will never be a PATHETIC and BORING housewife.” - Kara

As for me I prefer to be the cheated one, rather than a cheater.

I found my new bestfriend

... si Granli...

Finally, i can drive!!.. weee!..  hooray!.. Got my driver license too!.. :)

Someone else defifnitely will...

Got this from Facebook post...

It's so trueee..

Treat your girl right. Plain and Simple.

I know it can be hard to please her sometimes, but it’s worth it in the end. Remember that she’s your happiness, your world. She should be the first person you talk to in the morning, and the last person you whisper “Good night” to.

Unlike some of your bros, she’s going to be there for you when you’re the happiest, but more importantly, when you’re at your lowest. She’ll cook for you and care for you, so treat her like a queen. Girls are delicate creatures. Think before you say. Think before you act. They take every little mistake you make and multiply it by a thousand. So try not to mess up, alright?

When you’re fighting, sometimes it’s better to put your relationship before your own pride. You’re not helping yourself by making her upset. And never, ever, under any condition, let her go to sleep crying. She’ll resent you for it for the rest of your days.

Don’t forget to make her feel special everyday. Open doors, go shopping with her. Hell, make dinner for her! The more you show her you love her, the more she’ll give you in return. Remember that an “I love you” via text is never as special as one in person.

And show her off to your bros, don’t be ashamed of her. She’s never been ashamed of your dorky ass. Look, she doesn’t really need much in a relationship; she just wants to feel like she matters to you. That’s not asking for much.

But if you haven’t learned a thing from reading this, remember this. Love her unconditionally, loyally, and keep her close. Love her with everything you’ve got: emotionally, mentally, and physically. Because I swear, if you won’t treat your girl right, someone else definitely will.

My day

On my birthday...

I want..

Among my wishlist, i had my hair rebonded.. woot woot.. 3 to go... *whink*whink*

Friday Happy Thoughts

I read this in one magazine..

"happiness is not out there, but it is within us. It is in our openness to delight things ordinary. We become unhappy when we grasp for better things, we find joy when we keep still long enough to enjoy what we already have."

 

Very well said indeed. I often look  for happiness from a person whom i expect  i will be happy  but then most of the time i failed. Upon reading this, surely, it hits me and  realized that i think i got almost everything..and i guess i could not ask for more.. just like from my prev post, i can't have it all., so I don't need of wanting more. I'm content for what i have.

"Happiness is being alone every now and then. And happiness is coming home again". 

- true indeed again. Happiness is my kids.. Happiness is everytime i'm with them. Happiness is everything about them.. I so love them...

Being a bloghopper, i chance upon to saw some of  Wednesday Happy Thoughts blog entries, and i was inspired to do the same. But this time, i'll make it every  Friday, and i will call this "My friday happiness"..

SO to start with...

Happiness is..

- being mom to the cutest kiddos in Malaysia - my sucre and my sophie

- being employed

- kiss and hug by my kids

- seeing my sucre and sophie dancing

- hearing my Sucre counting and reading numbers and identifies colors

- seeing my kids hugging and kissing each other

- being still alive

- being member of Iglesia Ni Cristo (well, this is not to indicate my religious belief  

   perse but without a doubt this is my most happiness... )

You Can't Have It All

As usual, the reason behind all my depression and emotionally abused feeling is still the same person for almost 5 years.

Never been change.

I have a good job with a good salary. I leave in a condo. I can drive the car. I have pretty kiddos around.  But something is missing, 'til i realized, that none in this world is perfect.

I can't have it all, if i can, then i think my life is a perfect one. If my life is perfect, would i bother to call God? Would i still remember Him?

One thing for sure, God do love me. he knows me well,  so He let me feel those things, to remind me  to never let Him go.

What would i choose then?.. to feel the love of that person? or to feel God's love?

Definitely the latter.

So to you, you can hurt me emotionally over and over again. You can cheat on me, you can laugh at me.
You can just ignore me, you can do anything that you think makes you happy and makes me sad.  Then go on. After all I have Him that will ease all the pain that i feel.

What a good day to start

Amidst my emotional dilemma to someone, I had one initial interview today. Then an hour ago they called and scheduled for another interview tom. And the final interview next week, but then, before this call, i had another call from different company and they scheduled me for  interview on the day of my b-day at 12pm.

Wowww..I'm so grateful and thankful for these opportunities.. That reminds me of God's saying "Cheer up, my child, i have better plans for you". Oh, Thank you so much God. Though, no definite offer yet. Its just an interview, but just like what God wants me to believe. He has a better plan for me. Thank you God.

Getting older

My bday is coming near, an add'l number to my age again. I'm turning 34 in few weeks..

I want to celebrate it with my family especially with my kids.

So we plan to go to Genting again. Spend 2 days and 1 night there. I'm pretty sure, my kids will have a blast there. I will be very much happy if i saw them happy.


See you genting on my birthday! Weather, pls be good to us, after all, it's my birthday.. :)

Happy Heart's Day

We don't celebrate Valentines day.  Lucky hubbies for those who don't celebrate this day. (No flowers, no chocolates, no dates, etc.. )

Define friends..

Uhmm.. lately, i've been so upset. Wala lang. I just feel "used" by someone i thought my true friend. or maybe she is..

Kaya lang, mejo nahurt lang ako dun sa feelings na disregarded.

I admit na sobrang babaw ko to get hurt. I admit, yes i'm too senstitive. But come to think of it, sobrang babaw lang din ng kaligayahan ko.. The smiles and greet of the person means a lot to me na, sobrang appreciate ko na un talaga, knowing me na mahiyain talaga.Oh hell yeah, believe it or not, i am.. dun sa mga taong mahiyain din..nyahahaha.. pero kidding aside, mahiyain talaga ako... If we're not that close, at nagkita tayo, dont expect na kakausapin kita or babatiin.. Not that i'm a snob person. mahiyain lang talaga ako.. Nahihiya ako una mag-approach.. baka kase isipin na ang epal ko.. So i just wait his/her first move,. Kaya sobrang appreciate ko when a person make an effort to say hi or give a smile to me kahit ndi ko sya close.. Most of my friends, their very first impression to me is "maldita" at "suplada", but when they got to know me,  eventually they realized na sobrang kulit ko daw pala.. jologs pa!.. :) huhhh.. sabi ko nmn, mirror image ko lang cla.. :)

So now comes to this friend of mine, i can say that we're close already bec we exchange stories and grudges in life and even some secrets..

But lately, things change. Parang nawalan ako ng trust if she's my true friend. But well, knowing me, like what i have said, mababaw lang akong tao, maybe if she will be the one to approach me again, then who knows, i'll realize that she's worth to keep.. :) Uhmm.. ok, ok.. She's a nice person. At naging magaan talaga ang loob ko sa kanya at iconsider her as my lil sis. Kaya cguro nahurt din ako. Because i know, she's a friend who's worth to keep...

I have no issue about them as a couple naman eh. I'm happy for her.. In fact soooo happy, coz finally, my lil sissy will totally move-on from her past... I was the one pushing her before to give the guy a try.. And she did naman at as i can see, she's really really happy.

Pero sana, kahit may jowa na sya sana  same pa din yun approach nya bef at now na may partner na ulit sya.. oks lang sa akin eh.. ako na mismo ang magtutulak sa knya, "gora na.. i know kasama mo sya".. oks lang sa akin.. at naiintindihan ko... pero wala eh.. after that i think they become a couple, ni-ho ni-ha wala nako narinig sa kanya..  So i dont know.  sobrang babaw ko talaga.. pero wala eh, i was hurt.  Maiintindihan ko naman na sabihin nya man lng sa akin na uy girl coffee break? uy girl una nako sabay ko si....  So sana at least i will never feel na i was just an outlet of her sadness and boredom..

So define friend then?.. :)

Guilt feelings

I want to go home now and make up to my Sucre.
I feel so guilty. I cant even concentrate to what im doing.

I scolded him again, and slapped to his arms.. He cried so loud. I know,i hurt him again.
I know i'm a bad mother. I know that. This feeling tortures me. I do hate myself for yelling
my kids.. I love them soo much..

My Sucre,
I love you! I hope you'll not hate me for this. I love you son. I really do.. I'm so sorry son.
I hate myself for doing those to you. Pls dont ever hate me. All i want is the best for you and for you little sister.
But i'm hurting you so bad i know by scolding you.

I love you soo much son. I want to kiss and hug you right now but mommy is still here in the office so I asked God to kiss and hug you for me. :)

I love you. Ilove you and your lil sister more than my life.... You both are my happiness, my strength,.. my life... So i feel so bad that i hurt you..  

I LOVE YOU.. mmuah..

Love you so much,

Mommy

Sophie's Guest book

Soo happy with the outcome of this Guestbook. Designed by me. (ehemm) and printed by Lolliartz (w/c i avail from mydeal for only RM75.. )

Main Cover

I want to do the album for their 1st bday too. Sucre don't have this. Only the usual signature frame.
I wonder how long i can finish the project album bday.. hmm..this guest book was completed after 3 months.. :)

They will always be my babies

my little prince

My pretty princess

                            
Just like what i've posted in my FB status, i want to share also here one of the  scenarios happened at our house.

One night, while i have to send Sucre to bed,  he's still very active, very makulit. never listen to me  . He does what he wants to do. Jump here, throw there, run everywhere. I  asked him to stop or be quiet because his sister is sleeping already. But as usual, he never listen. Tired, hungry and sleepy, so my patience is very low. I don;t want to yell at him anymore nor spank him. Helpless and i really don;t know what to do, napaiyak na lang ako.. (yes, napapaiyak ako ng mga junakis ko..sa sobrang inis. ahahaha).. I was very touched to what Sucre did. When he saw me crying, lumapit sya and he hugged me. he tapped my shoulder and said  "tap kaying mami. Sowi mami" -- (stop crying mommy, sorry mommy) . then he touched my head and went to bed. Awwww.. i'm so so touched.. Napaiyak na naman ako not bec i'm still naiinis.. Napaiyak ulit ako  kse sobrang natouch ko sa gesture ng Sucre ko.... My son at 2 years old can do that. I'm so impressed. I'm so proud of my lil boy.. I love him so much.. No matter how kulit and likot he is... I love him, i love my princess too.. sooo much and no one can measure that love...

They will always and forever be my babies.. Til they have their own family, they will still my babies....  I love them i love them..

To my Sucre and to my Sophie
My Sucre, most of the time I yelled at you. Sometimes i hurt you,
My princess, if time comes that i did the same to you,  i do wish that those moments, it will never remain in your heart.

Pls do remember always that mommy loves you so much.. Mommy wants the very best for both of you. I will do everything to give the best life that you both deserve. I may never be a perfect mom, but i will do my best to be a good mother.

I always pray that both of you will grow as obedient and loving son/daughter and most of all I hope that both of  you will be a God-fearing person.

Ilove you my lil boy.Ilove you my princess.. **mmuahh** *kiss**

Love lots,

Mommy

Free planner

Weeee.. i got this for free..  Excited much, kse libre... So why i got this?. I need to be organize na daw.
organize??.. ano yun???.. harhar.. Happy monday. Its start of the week, so dapat positive and happy para this entire week, happiness lang.. :))

4th Year Anniversary

Holiday getaway

Its long weekend last week. Nov 7 is holiday.

So we spent the day in Genting Highlands...  I loved the weather here. It's really cold.. brrrrrr... Sayang, we want to spend the whole  night sana, kso fully booked na lahat ng hotel. sobrang dami tao din... We'll be back here. Naawa ako kay Sucre ko. Hindi man lang sya nakapaglaro. next time na lang Kuya Sucre ok.. I'll make sure you'll have so much fun here...

its their first time @ Genting Highlands

Rock princess - Sophie

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